About The Song

“Wrote this song in 2016 when I was 17 experiencing the earth-shattering heartbreak of a first love moving away for good. It is massively dramatic & long with a naïveté & innocence I look back on fondly now at 23. Like she had no idea about what was going to happen. Like the fact that after writing it in bed at ungodly hours of an 11th grade weeknight snacking on stale cereal she would eventually revisit the song and release it years later. Life can be quite cyclical at times and that has become painfully obvious throughout the process of re-working these songs that are some years old now. Can’t wait for you all to hear each one nestled in the plush & pillowy company of sister songs when the album drops in August but in the mean time, here’s a second snippet of my favorite thing I’ve made so far.” —Niki via Instagram

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Watch the music video here: (It’s giving me a nostalgic, innocent first love vibes)

Been a fan of Niki and her self-written song lyrics that have always been written beautifully. This one is probably one of my new favorite out of all her new works. Some of my favorite parts from this song:

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Fingers entwined and so were our minds
Cryin', "I don't want you to go"
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Have been moved around and experienced goodbyes quite frequently in my life, I’m pretty sure this has happened to me more than once. Goodbyes always suck. Even suckier when you found somebody who you feel connected to.

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But I'm stickin' to the screenplay
Gotta say I'm okay, but answer this, babe
How is it now that, somehow, you're a strangеr?
You were mine just yesterday
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But life goes on. Whether you want to admit it or not, distance does change things. As much as you want to try to keep things the way they were, at one point, somebody who’s close to you can easily become a stranger overnight.

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But heaven denied
Destiny decried
Somethin' beautiful died
Too soon
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This part is just beautifully written.

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But I'm lettin' go
I'm givin' up the ghost
But don't get me wrong
I'll always love you, that's why I
Wrote you this very last song
I guess this is where we say goodbye
I know I'll be alright
Someday, I'll be fine
But just not tonight (Ooh)
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Also this chorus that’s filled with heartbreak, fondness and acceptance of a closed chapter summed up what life and love are all about.